I Did This

I raised my voice, then slammed the door
I wanted more — but I'm not sure what for
You stood there quiet, bruised but strong
I knew I was wrong but kept going on

I cleaned the mess, I bit my tongue
Held on to us with shaking lungs
You begged for space, I gave you time —
And watched you slip out of the lines

I did this —
Tore the bridge, burned the light
Lit the match in the middle of the night
We had a chance, I threw it blind —
You stayed calm while I lost my mind
This wreck, this silence, this bitter kiss
I can't blame fate —
I did this

I said things I can't undo
And now they echo inside you
The walls I built kept out the pain —
But also love. I can't explain

You think regret makes you brave
But I was the one who tried to save
Everything, while you let go —
Now all you feel is what I know

I broke the glass
I swept the floor
I left too fast
You needed more
This wound, this truth, this poisoned bliss
I did this

I did this —
With every lie I let survive
With every sorry said too late at night
You loved a ghost, I wore a mask —
And cracked it with each shattered laugh
Don't call this fate, don't call it missed
This pain is mine —
I did this