Villain

How does it feel to watch the lights go out? Watch me numbing myself
Can't be good for my health
Always the one who has to let me down Never buy what I sell
You don't lie to yourself
Oh how are you so good at hurting me?
I know it's not your goal to watch me bleed It's my fault for trying again and again
And crawling back to you so willingly Addicted to the thing that's killing me
I throw myself right on your knife
And I call you the villain
And I call you the villain
High on the thrill of almost feeling loved
Sell my soul for a glimpse
Of something other than my loneliness
I'm climbing your rope, I'm almost at the top Sweaty palms and I slip
I'm rejected again
Oh why am I chasing you obsessively? You're someone who can't give me anything You show me this over and over again
I put us through this cycle endlessly
It's destination-less but I can't leave
I throw myself right on your knife
and I call you the villain
I'm just looking for someone else to blame (And I call you the villain)
And it's easier to curse your name
(Make you do the killing)
Than to finally face it, I can't admit
(call you the villain)
The you that I want, no he don't exist, no Let you go (go)
Let you live (live)
Oh I resist (no) Oh I resist
I throw myself right on your knife And I call you the villain
And I call you the villain
Make you do the killing
Then I call you the villain