I'M Doing My Best
Dempseyrollboy
3:15Welcome to my mind, full of dark red clouds Where it rains my blood, and it paints the ground Where I can't be touched, where the pain fades out Where the world is mine, where it all goes down I know that I'm sick in the head, there's something wrong with me I know that I'm better off dead, I'm an anomaly I know I'm alone in the end, but I don't wanna be Falling down, again and again, forever, constantly I created this space where nobody can enter To block out the days I don't wanna remember To make sure I never give in and surrender I have to survive through this gruesome adventure Night after night, I record and I write All my truest emotions, and that saved my life I was desperate as fuck, now, I'm reaching new heights It cost me everything, I paid the price Since I started doing me, these no-names hate me I'm just reminiscing on my flashbacks, pay me I've been through it all, dark times can't phase me I feel like the best in the game, you can't face me There ain't no one better than me at making these sad songs Go run through my catalog, I haven't made a bad song They don't believe the hype, but just wait until they catch on All the stones thrown at me became the ones I stand on Let's take it back to those moments in time Way back when I put it all on the line I never, I never ran from the grind I kept on going when I should've died Let's keep it real, put the bullshit aside If you were me, then you wouldn't survive If you were me, you'd be burning alive DempseyRollBoy, I looked death in the eye They tried to play me, and fucked up my plans They played themselves, now the world's in my hands They just don't want me to be who I am I'm putting on for the broken and damned I'm spitting shit only we understand Imagination is all that I have That's the escape from the ghost of my past My life was over before it began Number one reject, no one ever wanted me I was never seen, but I never let it bother me Now, I'm someone they all wanna be, I'm a prodigy Darkness is a part of me, my shadows always watching me Live by the sword, die by the sword That's the path that I chose, go to hell, or go to war The battle never ends 'til you're just another corpse Until you're nothing left, only damage and remorse Welcome to my mind, full of dark red clouds Where it rains my blood, and paints the ground Where I can't be touched, where the pain fades out Where the world is mine, where it all goes down I know that I'm sick in the head, there's something wrong with me I know that I'm better off dead, I'm an anomaly I know I'm alone in the end, but I don't wanna be Falling down, again and again, forever, constantly Follow me, I'll show you shit that's unthinkable Everything that you know to be true is fictional I've seen the light, but it's blinding and miserable It's metaphysical, some would say biblical Humans are cynical creatures by nature Yet they still chose to believe in a savior You can't predict their erratic behavior Perilous thoughts, they're consumed by their anger I'm just a vessel, a messenger Sent from a different dimension to change your perspective To leave an impression, and share a connection With shattered reflections that battle depression I'm blowing up, this is my moment This is the end, my final atonement Internally damaged, broken components I was forsaken, since then, I been roaming I live in a world of my own (my own) Safe haven, I call it my home (my home) A place that nobody can go (can go) No physical forms, only souls (only souls) I'm free of my flesh and my bones (my bones) I'm spiralling out of control (control) I'm dying, I'm giving up hope (my hope) Remember the stories I wrote (I wrote) I carry this weight, my regrets and mistakes Got me out on display for snakes at my wake Just a freak in a casket, whose whole life was fake A creature of habit who found an escape You cannot fathom the sick complications I faced every day, I was mentally drained Now, I'm a phantom, I left behind anthems My music is timeless, remember my name