Before I Exit

I'm sinking in a tide no one can see
My tears built an ocean inside of me
Breathing feels like drowning slow
I'm too worn out to let it show
Every heartbeat strikes like a wound
Life's heavy fists keep beating in tune
I'm still here, but barely awake
A stranger in the mirror that I can't shake
I want to live, not just exist
Find the pulse I've always missed
Before I exit this borrowed time
I need a reason, a rise, a sign
Pain's been dressed in my second skin
So much weight I can't swim within
I'm numb from the storms that never cease
Hoping for breath, for some small peace
Every heartbeat strikes like a wound
Life's heavy fists keep beating in tune
I'm still here, but barely awake
A stranger in the mirror that I can't shake
I want to live, not just exist
Find the pulse I've always missed
Before I exit this borrowed time
I need a reason, a rise, a sign
Am I alive, or just moving through?
Am I still the person of what I once knew?
I still feel the thrum, but it's faint and thin.....
I want to live, not just exist
Taste the life that I have missed
Before I exit this borrowed time
Give me a reason, a rise, a sign