Look At My Life

I been really tryna chase this dream for way too long 
cll the nights I left all the times I said my day is gonna come 
Now I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight 
I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight ya ya



When I Look deep inside it scares me sometimes 
Cuz this evil I hide is what eats me alive 
I'm looking through the smoke but got tears in my eyes 
I see the ugly truth with every mirror I find 

The further I reach down the more I'm concerned 
I had bumps at every turn you woulda thought I would learn 
I'm a glutton for punishment in love with the substances 
It's troubling I always seem to find where the trouble is 

I'm in the streets getting high again 
Thinking to myself what I might of been  
I'm drowning in this liquor dog I'm tryna swim 
Lying on this floor like i'm lying to my friends 

I gotta find what I'm after 
Please god would you show me some answers 
Cuz right now I'm just lost in this madness 
Tryna find my way back home but I can't yet 



I been really tryna chase this dream for way too long 
cll the nights I left all the times I said my day is gonna come 
Now I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight 
I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight ya ya



I'm really tryna face this but where do I belong
When I look at myself I just gotta yell where the hell did I go wrong
Now I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight 
I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight 




I got this poison and it's running through my veins bro
cnd all this cocaine rushing up my nasal 
I'm tryna trade this yankee fitted for a halo 
Look in my pockets got more products then a trade show 

Man I been doing this since I was doing evil eye 
I'm more than all you little haters seem to realize 
cnd all the darkness that I hold is all you see inside 
But I'm really tryna change I need to re define 

Man I spent so many years trying to reach for that Jesus piece 
No sleep tryna eat off these evil deeds 
Tryna find a little peace like it's the Middle East 
Ya It's getting slippery but I won't let em get to me 

I'm not ready to call it quits 
My family depends on every bar I spit ya
Love me or leave me I don't care what's next 
Long as I got my fam right beside me im blessed 



Life is what you make it so live now before you're gone
Ya these days go by and I hope sometimes our love will carry on 
Now I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight 
I gotta look at my life look at my life tonight ya ya