Pretense

It's getting harder each and every day
When the strength it takes to wake up is starting to decay
Have you ever felt the color in your patterns fade to gray?
Tell me your story
Is it worth it?
In the end we're 6 feet under, insignificant
It's been years since I've felt at home
All i want is to be left alone
 My mind has left me sinking
There's nowhere left to go
All Along
The waves are pulling me under
as I start to choke

Find me gone
Leave me dead In my head I feel the pretense
Move along
Don't forget
Pretend that you wouldn't remember it

Stay awake or get caught 
In my head, every word that I said is, much worse than I thought 
When you carry the weight for so long you forget when it's gone

Lookin back on a part of my life
Any second it could turn on a dime
Clock tickin Am I outta time?
Born to die. Livin in a world a lies.
Take back all the promises
Take back all the things I said
Start to crack
feel the blowback
yea, As the pressure makes you snap  

Find me at the bottom of the
And we'll watch the sky burn

Clawing at my grave 
I've been trying to escape
 
But the pressure of this tomb 
is all consuming

Constant pressure on my chest
All up in my head
Choking on the dirt i'm pulling
Can i get back
Refuse to relapse
My mind is on track
To save my comeback
But everyone and everything is always seeming to put the odds of the world so hard against me

Find me gone
Leave me dead
In my head I feel the pretense
Move along
Don't forget
Pretend that you wouldn't remember it
(You'd pretend that you wouldn't remember me)
 I'm already halfway
 I'm already halfway gone

 My mind has left me sinking
 Left Me Sinking
and There's nowhere left to go