Selfish

And it's hard to stay calm, living like a bullet in a song
Saying passion that was written in the Psalms
Feel misunderstood 'cause my lies won't hold
Can't let another author try to right my wrongs

Don't forget me, the fight's gonna set my soul
This road that I've been down, it's ran, it's told
The sun's beaming down, but the fact that it's cold
Kids only see a stranger when their dad come home

I'm developing scars, cutting evil, I can't tell them apart
All this envy and this jealousy ain't helping my heart
No need to get my shit together, I'll just tear it apart
And I'll never see the light of day when I'm left here in the dark

And then my mama knows (ah)
I know I've takin' this too far to ever make amends
But Lord, can't forgive my sins
When I just turn around and do it again?
I'm a selfish man

(And I) I could see it deep down inside
The man I become
Blood all on my hands, and my pants on a slotted gun
I'm a selfish man

Chain-smoking, drinking booze
Lord knows I'm a selfish man
Walking circles in my room
While the devil trying to hold my hand

Another night, but a different bar
Another woman in a different scar
Another right, but a different wrong
A different story, but the same old song

I burned bridges for a pastime
Sorry doesn't cut it when you swore it was the last time
She ran quicker than the liquor that I ran dry
Guess you wanted me to change, but my hand's tied

Talking to myself, saying that thing's fine
With no one there to tell me I ain't living right
Plan to get sober, but it didn't fan out
Only reason that I am, 'cause I fucking ran out

You knew I'm damaged good, shit, you known it from the start
And all these broken promises cost a broken heart
This broken home's got me drinking lonely in the dark
And all these bad choices are pulling us apart
But as long as you know that

I, I know I'm takin' this too far to ever make amends
But Lord, can't forgive my sins
Why don't I just turn around and do it again?
I'm a selfish man

(And I) I could see it deep down inside
The man I become
Blood all on my hands, and my pants on a slotted gun
I'm a selfish man