When I See Him

Thank you to the butterflies in my stomach
I haven't felt this nervous since I was a little fluffy down, nestling
My derring-do is half disguised, behind the smile
My beak is grinding, ever minding
I swore I wouldn't dwell on the divorce
So for my own health, I'll remind myself

That when I see him, I know that it won't feel so tough
I'll believe him and not the voice that says I'm not enough
No need for an arrangement, it can just be him and me
I'll set us free, how perfect it could be
When I see him tonight

See him tonight? Alright, alright
It's been a while since he's begged for attention
Are we okay? Huh, can't really say
I'm gettin' by, by avoiding his questions
So complicated, I hate when it's complicated
Why do I always end up in situations that are complicated?
Here I go again, gettin' in my head
So I'll focus on the sexy stuff instead

(When I see him) when I see him, I'm gonna do that thing he likes
(I will change things) no need to change things, I'll just bring the rope and spikes
(Oh gods!) We've got a nice arrangement, and it's workin' out just fine
We'll keep it light!
(I'll fucking die alone if this goes bad) when I see him tonight

Am I doing something I can't take back? (Relax)
Would he want me if he was free? (We're fine)
And if he's only here as a prisoner, what kind of monster does that make me?
My entire life's been written in stone (we're gonna bone)
He taught me that I could choose (it's cool)
He deserves the choice to stay or go, though it scares me to think what I'd lose

Can't wait to lose ourselves in nasty sex and make that bird squawk!
(We really must converse) we'll just stick with what makes sense, like him suckin' my-
Gah, this is the worst, waiting for the shoe to drop
Who needs words when you've got a mouth full of-
(Come to your senses) then I'll do that thing with my tongue where I-
He's worthy of your love and trust
I'll eat his bird-puss nice and rough!
Tonight can not come soon enough (he'll be cumming soon enough)
Oh, yeah!

But when I see him, will it be tender or be tough?
Will it please him, or will I just be fucking it all up?
Can this be a relationship, or am I still naïve?
I'll set us free, whatever it may be
When I see him tonight