I’D Rather Overdose - Mod Sun Remix

Can't let go
I can't let you go
I try but I always know
I wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you, I'd rather overdose

When you fucked up on them pills you can't hear me cry
Without them you're sick and we both know why
Pint after pint, 'til the well runs dry
If only you loved me like you love getting high

I can't let you go
I try but I always know
I wish you was holding me close
I can't be without you, I'd rather overdose

Fucked up, can't slow down
Won't come down, don't know how
My dad's dead, my mom's proud
Got bro stuck in our hometown
My bank account got zeros
I'm 'posed to be the hero
But here I am still fucking up
I'll drink my way to the beer no I
Know that you hate me and I hate me too
I can't get over what I did to you
You tried to help me and it wasn't going through
I hope that you miss me 'cause I miss you too

But I can't let you go
I try but I always know
I wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you I'd rather overdose

It was May 11th, 2019
I stayed up for a week all these drugs won't let me sleep
I did one last line until both my eyes closed
I said one last goodbye and then I overdosed
They found me later on my bathroom floor
I knew I couldn't live life like this anymore
Been sober five years since the day I almost died
I finally love myself the way I loved getting high

But I can't let you go
I try but I always know
I wish you was holding me close
Can't be without you I'd rather overdose