Suspend My Belief

It's all so grey, when did it all fade?
Was it ever even there at all from the start? (Breathe)
It's fallin' away, was I ever this afraid?
Why am I even scared if I don't have a heart? (Breathe)
If I am this out of touch, why does it hurt so much?

I'm falling back into the floor
To find what I'm not searching for
Do my own eyes deceive me?
Or am I now seeing clearly?
What do I believe in anymore?

Suspending my belief is not what I had asked for
To leave me clueless was a gift that which I'm sure

Was this my only purpose?
To be your obstacle?
Is my life truly worthless?
Was this all optical?

Now I'm connecting the dots, and I've unraveled the knots
That kept me safe from this life of emptiness
Now I'm lost in my thoughts, still don't know who calls the shots
But I can see that it's clearly not me

It's all a lie
Why should I even try, if I'm just an AI tryin' to play the bad guy?
I'm only worth about as much as this role that I'm given
I'm just playing my part in this life that I'm not living

I'm falling back into the floor
To find what I'm not searching for
Do my own eyes deceive me?
Or am I now seeing clearly?
What do I believe in anymore?

Suspending my belief is not what I had asked for
To leave me clueless was a gift that which I'm sure
But if I made it worth it, then maybe I'm not worthless
If you can win this game, maybe my life won't be in vain