Umitagari

From far away, at you, I gaze
Then intertwine and make you mine
Hidden beneath becoming meek
Notice me find, notice you're blind

No, I can't get enough
Feel all the stress and the pain building up
Ah, like a thorn in my side
And every single day
This wretched life only gets in my way
Need to flaunt the wounds collecting over time

Done with putting Bandaids on bullet wounds that bleed
They don't stop my aching, impulses that'll always scream
Dragging me to hell, won't admit it as I fall
If I close my eyes, I don't have to see the future at all

Love at first sight, in every right
You fill my head, feeling that spread
Before you see, I was too weak
Sorry I wept, yet

The hands around my neck
Choking me softly, I'd never expect
Lovely memories turning to pain
What goes up crashes down
A promise broke and fell to the ground
Wait, the fear is here, it's all too much to take

Laughing, we're together and walking down the street
Tomorrow is a fantasy, cherishing that perfect dream
You and me, a storm raging, til we call a draw
Stretching as we run from the real ending, run from it all

When will it come the day I rise above
The struggle, the never ending pain that I feel
When will I win the battle over love
And all of the fiction that it's writes onto me

Trusting in a Bandaid is difficult for me
What about a loose rail swaying as it shakes beneath
But the thoughts that intrude are gnawing at my flesh
Found the thread of hope, and it's hanging from my neck

I can't feel my head, it is burning from inside?
Lemme melt away in the thoughts that dance around your mind
Barely walking straight as I stumble home tonight
You were very kind to me, I'm so overjoyed I could die
So overjoyed I could die

Something we made, a silly game
A memory hidden beneath
Wondering more, why were they born?
Well so you see