Not All Scars Bleed

You ain't gotta, gotta change
You ain't gotta, gotta change

Trapped in my mind, everlasting, I don't know where to go
Always reminded of the sins I've atoned
They creepin' in, when I'm alone
The devil been draggin' me right down below

Back in the day, used to really want fame
'Til I got it, now I want to escape
Want every night with the ones I lost man
Been beggin' the reaper to call my name

Closin' up the casket it's tragic, feel like blastin' myself
Every time I look in the mirror it's shame, wish I was somebody else
Coffin lid, creak, I sleep, under all my regret
Pillowcase smell like gunpowder, load a gun by my head

Tears burn like a sip from the cup
I could relapse, but it won't be enough
Take off my mask and swear you'll see nothin'
But misery callin' for help from above

Why even try when nothin' been workin'?
Feel like I'm losin' my mind and my purpose
Peace of mind, only thing I couldn't purchase
I'll never know what lies under the surface

Finally got rich, got all that I need
But pain in my soul makes it harder to breathe
Trouble that I keep locked away
It's trauma that'll never leave

No, I don't fear death, I live it
These memories I'm missin'
More time, yeah, I've been wishin'
But I don't get it

Talk to the grave, like it's all I know
The names on the stone, a piece of my soul
Whenever I'm low, I take time to visit
It's all that I got to still feel close

I'm scared that as time goes on, I'll forget their voice
Don't wanna forget the face, gone in the void
I'm still holdin' on as long as I can
But sometimes feel like I don't got a chance

(Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh)
(Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh)