Fvn 07: Afraid I'Ll Change

I, I'm afraid I'll change
Guess that's why we stay the same
So tell me to leave
I'll pack my bags, get on the road
Find someone that loves you
Better than I do, darling, I know
(Aye, listen, aye, yo)

I struggle with love sometimes, it's fucked
I been through things, I'm afraid I'll change
Like dirty clothes if I change, will the pain start washing away?
My pain is stained, bloodstained lipstick on my things
And I don't think that I'm okay
So I make mistakes sometimes and I act like I wanna stay

Just tell me to leave I'll pack my bags and cut
No worries I won't complain
It's not that I don't care, I just dont have it in me to find a way
Find someone that loves you better than me
I'm convinced that you wont but I'm willing to say it
I wonder how my life would be if we didn't start dating?

There's a lot that comes with being with me
I'm your hero but should be a villain
Just keep it together MK be mature
Even if it feels like she playing
I don't know If I'm ready for this
I just seen some things that's making me question this
Everyone knows what to do and what not
So why do they do it? Maybe she don't know

'Cause right in front of my face it's perfect
Behind my back I don't know though
I got girls tryna get gangbanged by the band it's normal
Ask Luce and them I'm the serious one saying
"Nah lets stick to the music"
We got Lucy, Molly, Mary and Jane
Tryna make the mandem feel woozy

So I struggle with love sometimes, it's fucked
I been through things, I'm afraid I'll change (I'm scared)
Like dirty clothes if I change, will the pain start washing away?
My pain is stained, bloodstained lipstick on my things
And I don't think that I'm okay (I'm not)
So I make mistakes sometimes and I act like I wanna stay

Just tell me to leave I'll pack my bags and cut
No worries I won't complain (I wont)
It's not that I don't care, I just dont have it in me to find a way
Find someone that loves you better than me
I'm convinced that you wont but I'm willing to say it (I'm willing)
I wonder how my life would be if we didn't start dating?

Losing my mind when I saw that text, I'm vexed
Realised that girls are the same, let's vent
Times were hard back then, surgery and the stress
I sat in the rain for hours, the nurses say I'm an angel
Me I just held my breath, in my head when we get in I'll say it
Next week I'll say it, next month I'll say it

I never did say it, I slept and swept it under the carpet
I didn't even tell my guys
I felt so embarrassed, that day I changed, I can't even lie
I started to stare at these girls way more on my snap
And reply way more than I should've
Could've jeeted some whores get it outta system
That's the way that the mandem think

When our girl does suin that makes us peak
Like speak too much around random guys
Or get on the back of a motorbike
You ain't single like your friends at work
Now you wanna go smoke with a nigga
I don't care young buck or not, at work or not
It's a overstep, trust you not them but I like mines hard to get

(My mum), My mum convinced that she's obsessed
It's a genuine heart that's beating and I see it, yeah
But I met some genuine actors, genuine demons
Names tatted on some skin, slit writs and things
I've seen them bleeding
But we're having a baby I hope to God that this ain't a season

I struggle with love sometimes, it's fucked
I been through things, I'm afraid I'll change
Like dirty clothes if I change, will the pain start washing away?
My pain is stained, bloodstained lipstick on my things
And I don't think that I'm okay
So I make mistakes sometimes and I act like I wanna stay

Just tell me to leave I'll pack my bags and cut
No worries I won't complain
It's not that I don't care, I just dont have it in me to find a way
Find someone that loves you better than me
I'm convinced that you wont but I'm willing to say it
I wonder how my life would be if we didn't start dating? Bye