Barely Hanging On

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find, my way back home
Still don't know, where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning

I been livin' for the weekend
When, really, should be livin' in the moment
Right now, 'bout to plummet, off the deep end
I don't know if I wanna keep goin'

Lotta people, depending on me
Made a bit of money, but I ain't complete
Mind keeps racing, I cannot sleep
Bottled up emotions, I'm so weak

Not a cry for help, but often feels, like I'm under a spell
Got shit in my head, I don't know who to tell
Say time heals everything, I'm trapped to hell
I'm becoming pessimistic, will I excel?

Honestly, I'm tired, sick of myself
On the outside, lookin' in, thinkin' I'm well
Lost the desire, tryin' to repel
I'm reaching out, uh

So much pain in my heart, but still, I haven't given up on love
Come alive in the dark, write my thoughts, 'cause they're so robust
I don't wanna open up, I put that faith in, there's no more trust
I just wanna be happy, without that, I'ma be forever stuck

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find my way back home
Still don't know, where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find my way back home
Still don't know, where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning

I took my bruises, take my L's
No excuses, I prevail
Depression, man, it ain't no joke
Been stuck with it, since I was twelve

I just need some time alone
Major issues, got disowned
My phone, on standby, no one calls
It's been three days, I got withdrawals

I'm going crazy
The way I'm living life, lately, is slavery
'Bout to take a couple years off dating
Had enough of the heartbreak's, aching

Every part of my body, so exhausted
Overthinking daily
I try to satisfy my cravings
But my dopamine level's fading
I'm just saying

Death isn't the answer, grabbed that knife, put it right to my throat
As I sat in silence bawlin', somehow, didn't lose hope
Only sad songs on my playlist, that's the way it goes
I held my own, and walked the path, that no one knows

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find my way back home
Still don't know, where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning

I'm lost, again
Tryin' to find my way back home
Still don't know, where I belong
Fighting, barely hangin' on
I'm drowning