Not On Me

I been grievin' for a minute now, I know how that feel
My anxiety so bad sometimes I can't stand still, huh
I don't know if I'm numb to it or I just can't heal
Had me out here poppin' Xan bars like they was Advil
I was never good at listenin' and, shit, I can't still
Mama used to call me hardhead and my shit an anvil (shit an anvil)
Sometimes I pick up the phone and try to call my dad still (dad still)
I got a hole in my heart that I can't heal
Still, I keep my head to the sunrise (head to the sunrise)
After the dark days come the sunrise (come the sunrise)
I'm at bat, I won't strike out, no umpire (no umpire)
Far as we know, we only get one life
I'm on game, I'm like Dame with the jump shot
I can't fold, bro, this shit in my bloodline
Duck the suckers, duck the demons, duck the one time, oh, oh

I'm comin' for what's for me
Blessings rain down if you hate me or love me, yeah (if you hate me or love)
I wear it on my sleeve, that's the only time you see it
'Cause it's in me, not on me (it's in me, not on me)
Hand full of black cards, bouncin' out deep
Bitch, we lookin' like the Army (it's the Rexx Life army)
Yeah, mh, this shit a God dream
Godspeed, bitch, it's in me, not on me (it's in me, not on me)

Self-medicatin', I was tryna function
When everybody thought I was good, it was a bad assumption
I kept them thoughts in my head and dealt with the repercussions, huh
I'm a nigga, I feel better if I get some money, huh (get some money)
Say the word, I'm road runnin', bitch, I'll send a hundred, huh (send a hundred)
Breakin' bread with the home team, tell niggas to huddle up
We took it far, but we ain't take it far enough (take it far enough)
Oh (oh), I think it's obvious
Hmm, I don't do the weirdos, bullshit, politics
Hmm, yeah, I be tryin' my hardest to keep it positive
Hmm, yeah, but when I look outside
It be a lot of shit goin' on (lot of shit been goin' on, hey)
Look what all them tough times done made (oh)
All them nights I spent all alone, and I prayed
But without all that fear, I wouldn't know how to be brave, oh

I'm comin' for what's for me
Blessings rain down if you hate me or love me, yeah (if you hate me or love)
I wear it on my sleeve, that's the only time you see it
'Cause it's in me, not on me (it's in me, not on me)
Hand full of black cards, bouncin' out deep
Bitch, we lookin' like the Army (it's the Rexx Life army)
Yeah, mh, this shit a God dream
Godspeed, bitch, it's in me, not on me (it's in me, not on me)