Somewhere (Feat. Joy Oladokun)

Look

I try to cope with stress, it's so much shit to be worried 'bout
It's hard for me to talk about emotions, I'm burnt out
Curvin' anxiety inside the gym when I work out
Used to keep a Xan for when the workout ain't work out, yeah
When I was grievin', it was heavy, I made it seem weightless
Now I'm on the verge of bein' great and on the brink of breakin'
I pray to God, and all I ask is that He give me patience
Tryna fill this gap inside my soul that's infinitely spacious
I battle demons and regret, it burn like cigarettes
Somehow I still find solace in the fact I know I did my best
Maybe I should take a break and give this shit a rest
But I don't got too many avenues to get it off my chest
I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss my nigga Greg
"I love you, brother" was the last thing you ever said, yeah
Those words run marathons around my head
I try to stay present, but instead

I wish I was somewhere, anywhere but here
I wish I was somewhere where it was more clear
I wish I was somewhere, somewhere
Anywhere but here

Ayy, I sit in rooms in silence, still no peace and quiet
At my parents' house just tryna pack up everything inside it
I'm finna move to LA, my mom would be excited
Used to tell her it felt like home, and I would be there writin'
Ain't know the journey to get there would be as crooked
As a pickpocket stealin' your wallet when no one's lookin', yeah
I accepted it, ain't say I understood it
I spent many nights questionin' God, but who wouldn't? So
I think we get tougher, it don't get better
I wrote journals and letters tryna get my shit together
Look, you could go through it just to go through it
But I think it's better to turn temporary pain into somethin' that lives forever
Can't count the times I broke down at the meet-and-greets, yeah
Stories so heavy sometimes I needed a seat
How many times have you changed a life from the things you speak?
Or had people cryin' front row 'cause you gave a voice to they grief?
On the stage full of pain, tryna mask it with a melody
At least it's helpin' somebody heal, I guess it's destiny, yeah
This is everything I wanted, allegedly
I know it's sold out, but respectfully

I wish I was somewhere, anywhere but here
I wish I was somewhere where it was more clear
I wish I was somewhere, somewhere
Anywhere but here