I Dont Feel Like Me

I laugh with my friends, but it's just a disguise
Got pain behind these half-shut eyes
I scroll through the noise, I drown in the glow
But nobody knows what I don't show

Every mirror's got a version of me
But none of them look like who I should be
I'm tired of pretending it's fine
When I'm breaking every time

I don't feel like me no more
Don't know who I'm fighting for
Every smile's a losing war
And I can't fake it like before

I don't feel like me
But maybe I never did before
I keep my dreams in a glass jar
Shake them up and wish on the stars

If peace is out there, it's way too far
So I just drive alone in the dark
Maybe I was built to break
Maybe I'm just a slow mistake

But if I go out, I'll make it loud
So the silence can't take me now
I don't feel like me no more
Don't know who I'm fighting for

Every breath feels like a chore
But I keep coming back for more
I don't feel like me
But maybe that's what growing's for

But maybe that's what growing's for