Neon Seed

Caught hold of this neon seed
Rushed through my veins brilliantly
Sweet electricity
Distorted angels sing in
A soothing mixed minor key
Blinding ink laced intrigue
Never wanted any of this
But now it's all I can see
Drowning in ecstasy
Lovely poison like rancid honey
Kaleidoscope candy cherishing
What's killing me
How could something so small
Stone wall and consume my whole soul?
Even with all of the lows
Can't let go
I still hold
This false sense of control
Even though I know it's just an empty hole
Sick to the core
Won't take no more
You can torture and trap but we will win
This war
Luxury void
Nowhere left to go
Field of glass roses
Filled with fake gold
Smell of stale ashes
All I can breathe
Now all that's left in me
This God forsaken seed
How could something so small
Stone wall and consume my whole soul?
Even with all of the lows
Can't let go
I still hold
This false sense of control
Even though I know it's just an empty hole
Sick to the core
Won't take no more
You can torture and trap but we will win
This war
We see we think
We know how we feel
Complacent emptiness now
Don't even know what's real
Seeking only what satisfies the lie
So harmlessly small
Now cancer killing us all
Lustful lies
They thrive to feed
This counterfeit
Contrived messed up reality
Insatiable Insanity
Inhale death
One last breath
Synthetic ecstasy
Sick to the core
Won't take no more
You can torture and trap but we will win
This war
Sick to the core
Won't take no more
We will win this war