Fester

I don’t know what you’ve been told
I may just come off a little cold
I seem to be just fine
But nothing's right in my mind
Nothing’s right in my mind
Something you’ll all see in time

The walls are closing in
And I can’t seem to find a way out of this hell
Take a look at myself
And all I see is that kid

Made myself into a bigger man
But I’m just a slave to what I’ve done

It’s all setting in that I am the reason for this

But I just can’t seem to make this fucking stop

I shut out the guilt
No matter the cost
The failings the loss
This hole I can’t dig myself out of

More salt in the wound
Nothing can rip out these bitter roots

Deep within my soul
(Below,below I know)
The blame takes hold

Where I go I pray there’s a reckoning brought upon the ones I’ve hurt the most

There is no peace, no solace for those I’ve scarred
No redemption

No amount of pain can mend the bridges I’ve burnt along the way

Guilt,shame it’s always a part of you no matter how much you think you’ve grown or how many times you’ve forgiven yourself
It keeps you up at night knowing that you can never right your wrongs
That someone out there is hurting because of you
It makes you wonder will you just do it again

I can’t be freed

From the hell that I have made

(It torments me)

Let me drown in peace

I just can’t seem to burn the page