Gutter (Ren Remix)

(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)
(Sorry)

Back when I was fifteen, I got into the wrong crowd
Got myself in trouble just to make a silly man proud
When I was sixteen, I almost died
Swear my mom watched my life flash behind her eyes
When I was seventeen, I relapsed like ten times
And that last one led me to a downward spiral
Eighteen, picking up the drink
Felt kinda nice 'cause I didn't have to think

Nineteen, lockdown hit
Everything around me, it all went to shit
Then I turned twenty, when did I turn twenty?
How the fuck am I twenty?
Like what?

I should be dead in a gutter by now
Should be six feet under
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)
I should be dead in a gutter by now
Should be six feet under
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)

(De-de-de)
D-d-dead in the gutter (dead in the gutter)
(Should be dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)
I was twenty six I came back to the land of the living
Before that, I was sick in the body, unforgiven
Twenty seven, so confused, still alive, but in pain
I was smoked, 'til I'm dumb, 'til I'm numb, in the brain

Twenty-eight, let's get it straight, I put my paper to pen
And applied pressure to the pages, tell the story of Ren
A story of a fallen angel, amongst mortals, and men
Tryna carve my place inside this space, or stumble again

Twenty-nine the world has changed still I am sick
Still over medicated, stress related, cuts on my wrist
Now I'm thirty (huh?)
When did I turn thirty? (when the fuck did I turn thirty?)
How the fuck am I thirty? (Ah fuck)

(Ah fuck) (I should be dead in a gutter by now
Should be six feet under
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)

I should be dead in a gutter by now
Should be six feet under
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)

I'm just such a hypocrite
Don't know how I live with it
Tell my brother not to smoke
I'm the one who hasn't quit
Really, I'm just winging it
Hoping it don't go to shit
Hoping I can find a place where I fit

I should be dead in a gutter by now (by now)
Should be six feet under
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)

I should be dead in a gutter by now (dead in the gutter)
Should be six feet under (dead in the gutter)
Don't know how I swerved the corner
(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)

(Dead in the gutter, dead in the gutter, should be dead in the gutter)
(Dead in the gutter) Should be six feet under, (dead in the gutter)
Don't know How I swerved the corner (dead in the gutter)