How Was I Supposed To Know?
Xania Monet
3:50Ah Ah, mm I didn't need a hero Didn't need gifts Didn't need saving I just needed someone Who didn't make love feel like begging I wasn't asking for the world Just a text back before midnight Just a hug when my thoughts get loud And your voice when mine goes quiet You act like I asked for heaven But I only ever wanted your presence You busy for everybody else But I'm always at the bottom of your checklist And I let it slide way too many times Made excuses for the way you love Told myself, "At least he tried" But even lies come dressed in effort sometimes I asked for so little, and still got less Didn't want your money, just your respect Didn't need diamonds, just some damn consistency And it's crazy how cheap I priced my piece I gave you my heart, all you had to do was hold it But you kept dropping it, like it was stolen Wasn't asking for much, but I guess even that Was too heavy for the hands you had I stayed through the drought, through your silence Through the mood swings and broken promises Built a home on maybe and almost But you ain't even show up for the foundation I learned to shrink just to fit your comfort Clapped for you while I was hurting Asked for time, you gave excuses Asked for honesty, you gave confusion And I kept forgiving, kept on giving Even when you gave me empty in return Tried to turn pain into patience But your patterns taught me what I had to learn I asked for so little, and still got less Didn't want your money, just your respect Didn't need diamonds, just some damn consistency And it's crazy how cheap I priced my piece I gave you my heart, all you had to do was hold it But you kept dropping it, like it was stolen Wasn't asking for much, but I guess even that Was too heavy for the hands you had Now I'm done apologizing for my standards Done making room for temporary answers Love shouldn't feel like proving I'm worthy To someone who never planned to choose me early I wasn't hard to love You were just too lazy to try I asked for so little And even that was too much